help me breathe better
surgery in the morning
*ADDED NOTE: I was able to get a personal loan from a generous, generous friend so I can have surgery ASAP. The funds collected from the GoFundMe will be used to pay them back.
Hi friends,
I'm writing to you—nervous as hell—with a request: that you take a few deep breaths, ask for consent from the land to pray, and when you’ve felt the compassion, power, and nourishment of Pachamama, would you please send energies of favor, healing, and courage my way?
It’s quite sudden, but I’m undergoing major surgery early tomorrow morning, Philippine time.
It’s hard for me to write about my current medical situation right now, but you’ll find both the details and the place where you can contribute to my medical expenses here.
You will notice that the campaign’s beneficiary is Ryan Ho, which is not a mistake. He is my partner, and he’ll be directly forwarding the funds to me.
I’m so tremendously grateful for my friends for putting together this campaign—something I can’t do on my own. Asking for help has never been easy for me, unless it’s a mutual aid for defenders, grassroots organizers, or climate activists. I carry a lot of shame and guilt in asking for donations, even as I face a condition urgent enough to affect something as basic as my ability to breathe.
Every contribution, no matter the amount, brings me closer to a deeper inhale.
Even simply sharing this campaign helps more than I can say.
To my beloved friends—especially the wonderful Marissa Ukosakul-Witt—thank you for holding me through this time when it’s been hard to carry myself. I love you all very much.
To Pachamama and the guardians, guides, and honorable ancestors who have been with me since my first breath on this plane: now that I am at a moment when every breath feels like a miracle, I entrust to you the focus and precision of the surgeon’s mind and hands, the wisdom of my cells as they regenerate in recovery, and the renewed life-force I know is waiting for me.